i dont know if i want to write here

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I've been really open about my feelings on the internet. Which is fine, a lot of people are especially on neocities. It's makes me feel a lot of pressure to resolve my traumas because I feel like I've invited people into them. No one is ever really mean about it, people are usually really kind. Some people tell me my diary helps them and they really enjoy it. It's more so I don't really know what I want and I've never felt like this before. I don't think I have the material security to do this without stress. Lately, I feel really suicidal because there doesn't really seem to be a path for me out there. I cry a lot because existing feels like a cruel joke and I don't understand anything.