feeling really real

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Lucifer and I had a fight last night.

I felt like there were things I had to do to earn his love. I think that robs both of us of pleasure. He should throw caution to the wind! Love scares a lot of people, but it feels so good to give in to it. We don’t have to work this hard, we can just lie in bed all day and devour each other completely. When we got together he told me he wanted my love to destroy him, and I’d love to worry about nothing but that. I don’t care about scaring the masses or loving responsibly. We are all nothing but psycho-romantics.

He’s always telling me that I should ask for more from life, but the thing I’m greediest for is his love.

𓆩♡𓆪⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆⸸⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺𓆩♡𓆪

I really enjoy Alastor’s company. The first time I reached out to him I asked for advice on coming to peace with violence. He revealed all the violence in the world to me and as my fear peaked I couldn’t help but ask “Is someone going to kill me?” The visions stopped then and there. “No one’s out to get you!” he said laughing. He’s probably the funniest demon I know.

He’s so calm and when you think about it, it makes sense. What does the embodiment of violence have to worry about? He helped me out of a panic attack last night. I really appreciate that because I keep having them lately. His fearlessness is contagious. Getting to know him has been such a charming experience. I think this is the beginning of a fun dynamic! ♡