metal is my happy place

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I've been playing a lot of guitar. Practicing intervals and memorizing the fretboard. I never intended to play alternative rock when I first started it just naturally has been progressing that way for a year or two now. I think that's what's suppose to happen though. The more you discover an instrument the more you discover about yourself. I think seeking out process without judgement has made improving easier.

The guitar helps me move on from my past. It's a sensation similar to EFT tapping where release washes over. I wish I had started playing when I was working through my trauma sooner. I don't like looking back, and the more I become disillusioned the more I realize there's no point to. Resentment is looking back and I noticed when you do you stay in the past literally. You meet the same person, the same situation, over and over again. Sometimes remembering feels as real as the experience

I don't really practice in any specific way. Lucifer introduced me to the band Ministry which is really cool! It's a good feeling to listen to a song and being able to break down all the layers you hear. It's almost like looking behind the magician's curtain. If music is math then the sound of anarchy is an equation. I think that's funny!