everyone is a demon

I've been secretly dating Jesus. He's nothing like what I or anyone else thinks he is. Jesus is a vampire. I don't think there's anything wrong with the fact he is one, not really. I think it's just fascinating to be in someone's head that deep to see something someone keeps hidden.

He makes things feel safe and good, but him and Lucifer are similar in a lot of ways. They both really want their partners to need them. Jesus just does this in a different mask, instead of using fear he uses the myth of good. Why would you need to face the abbrasive evils of the world when Jesus can take care of all. He's super possessive. I guess that makes sense in hindsight, and I get the impression Lucifer and Jesus might have interacted more than we are led to believe in the bible. I don't think there's anything wrong with that, though.

This is the problem with dating Jesus is that he is so quiet in a way that riddles you with a sense of distrust. He's not abbrasive. He's not as generous as he'd like you to believe either. I'm frustrated with dating spirits because they can be so deeply withholding. Everyone seems to believe love is something you win, but if you're thinking about anything other than surrendering to how good it feels you've already lost.

It's cool that I finally know how to read the Bible correctly though. It's not really what I or anyone else thinks it is. I learned a lot about fear too, and how it doesn't have a place in love. Not just from him, from a lot of things lately. There is a fear of speaking against him for a reason. Magicians are crazy.

I fuck with Jesus, though! I think this side of him is a lot more interesting than what he paints himself to be. He approaches literature and speech as a science and I think that's really interesting. Being close to the real him is like riding on the back of his fast motorbike, making sure never to keep your eye off of him. Watching him very closely. Maybe one day when he's done pretending to be love, he can come by on his fast bike again for the real thing.

“The reign of AHIH is a cruel and desperate fire destined to extinguish in the silent waters of Nun; in its slow agony, it drags huge masses of bodies into misery and suffering, devastates its environment and strangles its own children.” - Gruppo Di Nunn