sin vs legality

⋆ 𝒻ₑᵦᵣᵤₐᵣᵧ ₁₀ ₂₀₂₅

The cool thing about technology is that we are more in tune with sides of ourselves that would have remained hidden otherwise. It's been making me wonder if people have any control of what they like, if it's genetic, or what. Maybe, all of the above. I'm not that well versed in developmental sciences to speak on that part. That self understanding comes with the price of endless input of others as well, others that might be vocal about moralizing new found parts of ourselves. Parts that are either permanent or like stars are already dead once we found them.

I've been trying to understand my will, or my authenticity, with more deliberate consideration lately. What does it exactly mean to do something out of love, is it really true that you can embody who you are without hurting anyone when anyone can be hurt? Not every missed opportunity is a regret, and I struggle to find the difference between the two. I look back at certain moments where I've been victimized and wonder if they were mindless tragedy or an authentic expression of themselves. Vice versa.

Whenever legality versus sin is brought up people bring up the worse acts of evil to prove a universal principle of good. What about the "smaller" more subjective laws with their own loopholes and wealth bypasses? The older you get the more aware you are of the legal system and the law becomes a chess game where you're only allowed to move your king piece, but the system plays as normal. Constant evasion, even if you're not doing anything wrong.

The only way I cope with these structures is declaring them already dead like certain parts of myself. If they are murdered or die of natural causes isn't my business. I'm not uninterested politics, but I'm not going to pretend to be shocked about extinction as if it doesn't happen to every animal. The suicidal pursuit of mankind is ruthlessly human in itself, so I don't take it personally.